"You're everything I thought you never were.
Ain't nothing like a thought could have been
Still, you live inside of me
So tell me how is that"
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i feeeel sucha let down to everyone. EVERYONE! seriously. im feeeeeling so out now. i dont feeel belong-ed. i thought this gonna bee real easy. but yeah, it takes ages to adapt things here. "action speaks louder than words". i think i made a biggeest mistake by staying. i should have just move on with life and proceeeed to the outside world rather than just remained stucked here. the environment was reallly diffrent. i nvr feeel so alone in schoool before. i never feeeel so quiet in schoool before. i never. everyday, i optimised myself by saying im the luckiest girl on earth to be able to have another chance to get my certificates right. but feeelings change as soooon as i stepped in school. i feeel so demoralize. i feeel so stranger to everyone. i dont feeel thats the place i give my happiness all out. yes i made friends and i can say alot of friends but . . . haish. its just hard ain't it. real hard.
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yes, this is fucken stupid. oh lord!
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i miss having fun in school. i miss laughing and joking in schoooool. i misss everything .
i miss HAVING A LIFE LIKE YESTERDAYS
10:23 AM // lipsof this sugar on